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[Kristina Sylvia]

Kristina could not calm down at all. She didn't really hear Cara at all. She was far to busy trying to breath. She had thought she had gotten over all of this. After all it had happened so long ago. It was just that around his death date everything became so fresh and new. It probably didn't help that her little friend was visiting for her week of the month. It wasn't easy either way. It never really affected her behavior before and not even now. She just kind of shoves it all into the back of her mind and moves on. She manages really well too. That is until someone mentions it and then it is like a floodgate of raw and hurtful emotions. It makes them worse when they come back the longer she tucks them away. It is almost like shaking up a pop bottle, the longer you shake the worst it explodes. That was Kristina.

She began to get her breathing slowed down as the memories and the pain slowly went away. It helped that Cara was trying to sooth her. It really did. She was one of those people that were easily soothed like that. Besides she had moved on from this a long time ago. It was easier each year to pull herself together. She slowly started to breath just a little bit heavy. She didn't mean to have these little fits, they just happened. She actually hated them, because they showed her soft spot. Kristina liked people to think that she had no weak spots. That she was a strong person with no past and at the very least not a bad past. She strives on people not knowing about her dad, but there were times like these when the new just flowed from her lips. She couldn't stop it.

Kristina sat up and held her stomach. She had stopped crying and was now just trying to calm her breathing down. Finally when her breath got back to it's normal speed and her heart only hurt a little she looked at Cara. "Thanks." She mumbled the word. She didn't know what to say. It wasn't like this was something that happened everyday at a book store. "I am really sorry. I normally don't react that way." Her face got pouty. She was ashamed of the way she had reacted and she wished she hadn't. "Just sometimes I fall a part. I have it all together and then it just comes out. I am so sorry you had to see that." She spoke directly to Cara and she made if very clear that she was only talking to Cara. Miss Alexis was the one who had started it and therefore Kristina could care less about how that little Missy felt.

[Alexis Donovan]

Alexis Donovan was really never one to keep her comments to herself. That just wasn't something she really liked to do. She liked to share with everyone what she was thinking. Sometimes, and only sometimes, is she able to control what she's thinking and saying. This is just so rare, though. She is a dramatic young lady, and likes to start and cause drama, along with run her mouth and speak her mind. To her, and actress should always say what she's thinking because to them the world is a stage. So, life is her script. Why not make it a drama? She sly smirk was just not leaving her face anymore by this point. It was so, so easy to set Kristina off. It wasn't even funny. She bet she could have this girl running in circles if she wanted to. She was thinking about doing so, really. It would be rather funny for all of those watching, including her. After thinking about it for a moment, she looked right into Kristina's brown eyes. Alexis' eyes were almost dancing with evilness. This was going to be way too much fun.

"Kristina," Alexis said her name oh too sweetly. It almost made Alexis sick to hear herself talk like that. She stole a glace at Cara, who was just looking blankly back at her, "You wanna know what's really different between us?" Her coy smile was something that she didn't think could get any meaner, "I'm not a weak person." She played with a stand of her blonde hair, "I'm a strong person who always has money to fall back on." She liked playing the rich card. She knew it was so mean and terrible to do, but hey..this girl had PUNCHED her! How dare she!? She was never going to forgive Kristina for doing that, or forget that it happened. Even though this would deeply concern her mother- One of her children not forgiving and forgetting- but she didn't care at this point. She wanted to make this bitch feel like dirt. She knew it would be oh so easy, and was going to do it as quickly as she could. "My daddy died in a car crash," She was now toying with her emotions, "Yours died because he didn't want to love you anymore." She really was being a bitch herself, but she was also rather enjoying it. Plus, there was no one there that could make her stop. She could shut Cara up in a second with some wise ass remark about clowns or something, and then she'd get so scared she'd leave. It was just that easy. Alexis wondered if she was being too mean to this girl....nope. In fact, she didn't quite think she was being mean enough!

If you know Alexis, you know that she will never be the first one to walk away from a fight. Leaving was just not something she was going to do. "I hope your face freezes like that, " Lexi said while looking at a poor, "It'd be funny to see you walking around with a huge pout on your face all the time. Like you were begging everyone to deal with you." Was it a wonder why people had no idea that Cara and Alexis were related if they hadn't taken a good enough look at them? They always wondered how one girl could be so sweet, and the other a sweetie sometimes, and a bitch the rest of the time. She had a medium, though. "I'm so sorry that you're still here." She was getting sort of bored of talking to this girl. "I hate having to deal with...middle class people." With that comment, she picked up another book, and read the back of it.

[Kristina Sylvia]

Kristina wouldn't break down again. Once she did it was almost impossible to set her off again. It only took her the few minutes for her to calm down for her to build back up her wall. Therefor it takes a lot to break the freshly broken wall. As time goes by the wall obviously gets weaker and weaker until one little comment knocks it down and she has to rebuild. It may be a weird and messed up cycle, but it was one that worked for her. It took a lot of energy to keep that wall up and sometimes she was just dead tired and she didn't know why, but that is the reason. It's hard to have to keep so many things inside you. Just so you can be a normal human being. She didn't choose this way of life. It was given to her the day she was conceived. She thanked God everyday for the strength to live through it.

"Money?" She looked at Alexis with a face that was a mixture between confusion and disgust. "Money only gets you materials. I have God on my side and with him nothing is impossible. Not to mention he is my father and he will carry me when I am weak." She said with a lot of confidence. The thing that really got people was the fact she was really religious and then she was Bi-sexual. To most people that was oxymoron. To her it made perfect sense. Love comes from God, so that makes all love holy. Kristina glared at Alexis. "My dad died because he was depressed and his body gave up." Her teeth were snarled. "Your dad died because someone decided to do the world a favor and run him over so there wouldn't be any more people like you running around." She glared at Alexis with more hate then she thought she was capable of. The hate kind of made her tone acid.

Kristina stole a glance at Cara and thought that what she said was a bit harsh. She just couldn't remember that those two different people were related. She sighed at looked at Cara with her eyes full of apologies. Her head snapped back to Alexis as she continued to talk on. "I am sure that your face had to have frozen at one point in life or another. It couldn't always have beens so deformed could it?" She was not playing nice. She tried to find the good things in people, but she wasn't finding a single thing in Miss Alexis. She glared at her even more as she said something about middle class. "I may be middle class but at least I know who my mom is." She said it with cold dark eyes. "Oh and not to mention actually raised by her." Her eyes looked at the book that was in her hand. She rolled her eyes and looked to the ceiling. She hated snobby people.

[Cara Donovan]

“We do really believe in God,” Cara told Kristina, “He is our Holy Father who is also always on our side. We go to church almost every Sunday that we can because we show our respects to him. We enjoy doing that as a family.” She nodded sweetly at first, but her heart broke it two when Kristina said that about Kyle, their father. In fact, she couldn’t believe that she’d even go there. She stole a look at Alexis, who held all her emotions inside. At the moment, she wished that she could do that. She really did. Tears started to role down her pale cheek. Her face went white when she said that terrible thing about Kyle. She wasn’t sure if she was (at this moment) above smacking this girl down to the floor. But, of course she was too nice to ever do that. “I can’t believe you’d ever say that.” The tears were now coming quicker, “Our father was an amazing man who always took the best care of us. I looked just like him. We have the same eyes…” She wrapped her arms around her sister, feeling bad that Alexis had to see her cry. “He wasn’t a mean person, you know. He was always so nice.” She smiled at the thought of him, “Some drunk driver hit him on his way home from getting the family pizza. Every Friday night was the night we went out to eat or got pizza.” She tried to put on a strong face, but it wasn’t working too well.

She didn’t like how mean and harsh the two girls were being to each other. It was getting to be too much. They should have never started to talk about their dads. It wasn’t worth the pain of it all. It just made both girls get upset and angry. She tried not to comment again, but then she couldn’t help it, “Alexis looks just me…is my face deformed?” There was a bit of evilness in her tone, but not much at all. It wasn’t like she was trying to be, either. It just came out that way. “I don’t think that it’s very mature to make fun of anyone’s looks, either.” She played with a strand of Lexi’s hair, “Mainly when it isn’t true.” She looked up at Kristina, “You just said that you strongly believe in God, well, he made everyone beautiful, didn’t he?”

Now, Cara and Jessica, her mother, have always been very close. From the second Cara was born, she had this very special connection with her mother. Her first word was even “mama”. How sweet was that? “My mother, sorry,” she glanced at Alexis, “Our mother is also an amazing woman. She married a very well to-do man who owns three law firms and can give her- and us- anything we need in life. I don’t think it’s fair that you judge her.” She nodded sadly, “Sure, we saw nannies and maids a lot, but because my mother is such a hard worker.” Ok so…sometimes it was because they went out to a party or whatever, but it was all good and dandy with them. They liked their nannies. “So, I think we’re gonna go.” She pulled Alexis’ hand, “Let’s go, Lexi. I don’t want you fighting anymore.” Cara pulled Alexis out of the book store…she wasn’t mad at Kristina… just upset.

((Sorry, Traci. XD But I was running out of stuff to do. XD I had to end it.))