Saying Sorry {Milo}

[Milo Parker]

Milo listened to Addie a bit upset. What did she mean it wasn't as complicated as it seemed to make a decision?! Of course it was complicated, did she not just hear what he'd said? He was diverging to her part of how his brain worked and all she could tell him was it wasn't complicated? She obviously had no idea whatsoever... then she turned his head, forcing him to look at her. Alright, so maybe she knew a little bit. "No Addie, no, I do not think that will make me not want to be with other girls less than I want to be with other girls right now," he said with a glare at her. He was kind of lying though, he did think that maybe she was right about things. That maybe being with Taylor would allow him to want to be with just one girl, but he was going to fight that thought. Because he didn't want Addie to be right about it, he wanted it to be something that would just pass with the proper amount of time. Or maybe that he was just on something and that it would just be a weird phase that he was going through and sooner or later he'd be able to go back to his usual ways.

He was pretty sure that Addie was trying to help him in her own weird way or whatever, maybe she did actually think that going with Taylor would be the very best thing for him. But he didn't think that it could be. Relationships were possibly the scariest thing that he could think of, they involved things like commitment and then there was the small fact that no one could have a real relationship if they weren't honest about things. It wasn't that Milo lied about things a lot, it was just that he didn't give explanations for things that he did. And apparently in relationships it was important to be open with experiences and thoughts and feelings and all that other stuff that he never shared with anyone. "I do not open up to people, Addie. You know that, I can't possibly date someone even if I wanted to - which I don't - because I wouldn't be able to tell them anything. You're the person I trust the most in the world and I can't even tell you everything, how could I even begin to tell someone, anyone even how much I've let you know."

It was an impossibility, besides he'd tried 'relationships' in the past, well last year he'd tried one... except not really, however she had been considered his girlfriend so he thought that it was basically the same thing. But that hadn't exactly worked out great, the girl was really not his type and on top of that fact, she was jealous of Addie. And for the longest time he couldn't understand why, he really didn't get it until she started yelling at him about it. Apparently she had problems with him telling Addie everything and her nothing, and other stupid things like how they acted around one another. For some reason it was not okay for the two of them to be close or something like that, really it was quite crazy to him. He didn't see the logic in it even after she'd explained it all. He didn't see where there would be a problem for him to be close to his best friend, after all she was just his best friend. Everyone knew that, though he was pretty sure that not everyone quite understood the bond that the two of them had.

[Addison Micklesen]

Addie let out an aggravated sigh as he kept arguing on the subject, restraining the urge to shake some sense into him. She wondered if it might even be a pride issue at this point because she was almost sure he knew she was right but just didn't want to admit it to himself, or to her. Of course there might be a bit of fright in it too. Fear of the unknown, that was a popular one, though it was strangely annoying coming from her friend at this very moment. If he'd just admit it they could move on to another subject, but they were both too stubborn to give up, and Addie just wouldn't stop because she knew she was right, and she never stopped when she knew she was right. "Haven't you stopped to think about the fact that the reason you want so many girls and need so many girls is because none of them really satisfy you?" she asked, raising an eyebrow. "And I do not mean on a sexual point of view," she added quickly before he could comment on that one. "Because obviously I doubt you'll ever be satisfied on that level," she muttered more to herself than to him. But she couldn't really say anything on that one - she was as bad as he was, truth be told.

She sighed and shook her head slightly when he brought up the argument about the fact that he didn't open up to people. So she couldn't deny that one, it was true that Milo was a pretty secretive guy, closed on himself. She was one of the only ones who'd been able to get through the wall he had up around himself, and even then she was never completely there yet, and she was okay with it. She knew she'd already achieved something good and unusual by even getting him to confide into her and trust her enough to tell her things, so she was happy with it and she figured that some day, she might actually manage just the tiny bit more she still lacked. It could wait though. Neither of them were probably ready for it anyway, because she couldn't expect to receive without giving, and there were somethings she too prefered keeping to herself. She could also understand why Milo thought it wouldn't work to have a girlfriend without opening up to her. Some of his previous girlfriends, if they could be called that, had been a bit of... well, bitches. And jealous ones at that. Of her, on top of it. She could understand to a certain extent, but she wasn't gonna stop being close to Milo because some stuck up girl didn't want her to.

"Alright, I'm gonna ask you to answer me truthfully on that one," she said with a frown. "Do you really think Taylor is gonna push you to tell her stuff? Do you think she'd be one to try and get some information out of you when you're obviously not comfortable sharing it?" she asked, raising an eyebrow at him. "She's gonna wait, Milo. She's not gonna force you to open up, she's gonna wait until you actually trust her, and if it doesn't work, at least she'll know it wasn't her fault. I think that's how it's gonna work if you'd just give her a chance," she sighed a bit, frowning. "Besides, maybe the reason you never opened up to any of your girlfriends before was because they weren't even real girlfriends, just girls who imagined themselves they'd managed getting closer to you for some reason," she shrugged lightly. She moved once more so that she was facing him completely, looking at him straight in the eyes, her face serious. "I'm gonna ask one thing of you Milo, one single thing. Give it a try. Don't push it, just try," she told him. "Go out with her, call her a recurrent date until you actually do consider her like a girlfriend, and if that doesn't happen, at least it won't be because you'll have been too scared to try."

[Milo Parker]

He really wished that Addie would just give up, but knew his best friend well enough to know that she wouldn't until he changed his mind. But she should have known him well enough to know that it wouldn't happen either way. They could spend the next few days arguing over who was right and who was wrong, because neither one of them would give up willingly. That was why each of them just usually learned not to say anything about certain subjects after a while because they'd eventually call it a truce and move on. He listened as she tried to bring up another point as to why he needed a serious relationship. He was about to object to her comment, because that was a complete lie. Some of the girls satisfied him quite nicely actually, but then she added the next part. Okay fine, if it wasn't about sex then she was right. Actually, she was even more correct when she added her next comment but he was sure that was more of her thinking a loud. But if they weren't talking sexually how the hell was he supposed to know if he was satisfied with a girl. What other way was there to be satisfied with girls?

"What do you mean satisfied with the girls? How else am I supposed to be satisfied with them?" he asked. "Like I am with our friendship? Because that it completely different ground Addison." It was true, he did view her a lot differently than he viewed other girls, because she was just a friend and he was satisfied with that. Happy with the fact that the two of them got along and that he had someone he felt like he could depend on. But if he was satisfied with those aspects with a girl that he was romantically interested in, wouldn't it make him no longer romantically interested in her? Wouldn't that make her a friend and not a lover? It was just too confusing to think about, too much to try and comprehend. He didn't have time to sit around and figure out the differences between friends and love interests, well besides the lack of sex with friends.. usually. Other than that he couldn't see any differences, and Addie was just talking crazy talk in his mind. She wasn't explaining anything, she was just making the whole situation more complicated then it had been before she got involved.

He sighed and decided that he would do as she asked and answer her truthfully about her question, as much as he hated to admit that she would be right about anything. "No," he said, he didn't think that Taylor would be the type of girl to push information out of him if he didn't want to share it with her. She did seem like a patient person, one that would be willing to wait for someone to open up when they felt like it. So she was probably right on that point, but it did not make her right about everything. She moved so that she was facing him and he could tell that she was really serious. He glared slightly at her for the ending. "Let's get one thing straight Addison. I, Milo Parker, am not, nor have I ever been scared of a girl." It was an outrage to even consider that thought, no girl had ever made him scared of anything. And he wasn't about to let anyone think so either, not when it was so false that it wasn't even funny. It was unbelievable for her to think that he was scared of anything, especially when it came to girls. "She is just a girl Addie. There isn't anything more to it. A serious relationship won't come out of it, but I am not scared to date her."

[Addison Micklesen]

Addie rolled her eyes but couldn't help but laugh a bit as she moved back to sit beside him, shaking her head a bit when he asked what other ways he could be satisfied by a girl. "You're so clueless..." she said, sighing a bit. "And yet you still manage to get so many girls in your bed... if it wasn't from your hotness, you'd be very sexually frustrated, I hope you are aware of that, so keep your body in good shape and protect your pretty face," she teased him, pinching his cheek lightly. So he'd never really been in a real relationship so she figured it was normal that he didn't really understood what exactly it involved. It was more than friendship on some levels, the whole closeness issues, the feelings were usually a bit stronger, well, love feelings anyway. Obviously, if it was just a mere relationship that just started, the line between friendship and love could get a bit blurred, because for some people that was how it started, and for some others, it simply turned into that. She wasn't really too sure of how to explain it to Milo though - some things you couldn't understand before you actually felt them, and she figured it was one of those. Still, she'd have to try because she wanted him to know what he was possibly missing out on.

"Yes Milo, I mean like friendship, like our friendship even," she said. "Loving someone isn't all that different than being friends with them, it just takes it on a whole new level. Because you experience love everyday you know, friendship is just another kind of love," she tried explaining, knowing he might not understand still but trying her best. "And if you are not friends with the person you've involved with, it might be a bit harder to connect on another level. Our relationship didn't work on the love interest part, but it still developped our friendship. We weren't that close before we started dating," she pointed out. "We just found out we were more like family than lovers, but with someone else it might just be the opposite. It's all about the closeness, it's what you feel, you can't describe a feeling you just feel it Milo," she said with a small sigh, shaking her head a bit. She knew it was complicated, and she knew it was hard to understand - was she in his place, she'd probably tell herself to shup up because she didn't make any sense. But she knew that she was right still, and he probably would see that sooner or later.

Addie snorted slightly as he started his little speech about how he wasn't scared of girl. She rolled her eyes, leaning back on the tree trunk and folding her arms across her chest, looking at him with a raised eyebrow, the look on her face clearly meaning that she was just waiting for him to finish to call him on his bullshit, which she did as soon as he was done. "You are such a liar, Milo Parker. You are scared of her, you are scared of dating her because you know it could actually turn into something serious, and you don't want that to happen. You don't want to have a commited relationship, you don't want your life to change. But that's just hardheadedness!" she said, nudging him slightly. "Because you just won't let yourself realize that change could be good for once. You, Milo Parker, are scared shitless of Taylor because she could be the first girl to actually get to you deeper, and because you know that even though you won't admit it right now, you care about her. And that scares you," she said, knowing she was right. She didn't think he'd admit it, but it didn't change the facts, and the facts were that he didn't want to fall for Taylor, and she was almost sure that in the end of it all, it was because he was scared of letting a girl close enough to him to actually be the one to get hurt for once, and not the other way around.

[Milo Parker]

Milo would admit that she was right about him being clueless, because in this case he was quite clueless. He knew how to get a girl in bed, what most of them liked to hear, how to charm them, and how to completely blow them off after he was finished with them. But, that was as far as his scope of knowledge with girls could extend. Past that he dropped into the deep abyss of cluelessness and usually just allowed himself to be blissfully unaware of how to do anything past that. It had been a pretty good system thus far, so he really didn't see why he had to change it., except for the fact that now apparently he was going to have to if he wanted any chance at all with Taylor. He couldn't help but grin slightly as she teased him about keeping his body in good shape and protecting his face. "Don't worry Addie dear, I always do. I don't deal with sexual frustration well enough to not keep myself in good enough shape to get a girl whenever I need one." His tone was teasing, but the sad fact of the matter was that every word that he'd just spoken was completely true.

He gave her his attention as she tried to explain what he seemed to be missing. Her explanation wasn't really helping, it was too confusing to help. He needed a more simple and more exact definition. He could get bits and pieces of what she'd said, like how they grew closer as friends after they'd been in a relationship together. But it was obvious that she couldn't describe in, he didn't know if it was just because it was a feeling and you couldn't describe feelings or if it were because she just couldn't describe it herself. Either way, he just wanted her to stop trying. "Addie just shut up," he told her after she'd finished speaking. "You aren't helping me to understand anything. In fact I'm pretty sure I am more confused about things now than I was before you started explaining." He knew that she'd understand that he wasn't saying it to be mean or anything, but just that he really didn't get the point that she was trying to get across to him. Besides it was going to waste her time if she kept trying to get a point across to him that he obviously just wasn't going to grasp.

He sent another glare at her when she called him out on what he was saying. Why couldn't she just allow him to live happily in his own little word of denial? Why did she have to try and make him admit it out loud that he was scared of what could happen between him and Taylor? It was times like this when he really wished he had a different person to turn to, someone who would allow him to live on with his denial and let him screw things up himself, but Addie just had to go and try and make him stop himself from doing something he'd regret later. Really, it was like she cared or something. "Addie. Shut up. Now." It was as close to as admittance of what she was saying being true as she was going to get out of him. He was too stubborn to give her any more than that to say that she was right. But he at least hoped that she would do as he asked and just drop the whole subject. He didn't really want to think about else she could possibly say about the situation, because he was quite sure that it was a lot of different things.

[Addison Micklesen]

Addie wondered just what it would take for Milo to realize he wanted to be with Taylor, even if that meant no sex for a little while. Because well, Taylor was still human after all, and she doubted that the dancer would make him wait a whole year, even more than a few months seemed a bit unlikely to her. Well, obviously, she didn't have the same views on sex as Taylor did, but that didn't mean she wouldn't do anything either. She figured that, even for a girl who associated sex with love, some sensations would be too good to pass on. Of course, Milo shouldn't expect much before at least a few weeks. Addie doubted Taylor had even done as much as kissing before, and though that definitely hadn't bothered her the first few times, she'd experimented with a guy, or even with a girl, she figured Taylor might feel a bit awkward about the whole experience. Well at least, Milo would find out about the joys of teaching a girl to do stuff. Well, she didn't know as much as what kind of experience the girls usually went for had, she'd never really bothered to ask that before, but something told her he didn't usually go for girls as unexperienced as Taylor when it came to dating and having sex... and well, pretty much any other activity that was related to that.

"Well, see it this way then," she said, leaning back on the tree to think more of what to say. "Yes, dating Taylor will mean a lot of waiting, and you might have to deal with sexual frustration a few times before you get to relieve it," she told him with a small nod, knowing that first part would most likely not make him feel all that much better, but going on anyway. "I mean, you definitely won't get her in bed on the first date, and I wouldn't really expect it to happen for a little while either," she added, wondering if that'd make him feel a bit depressed and whatnot - coming from him, it wouldn't overly surprise her, but that wasn't her main goal obviously, she was just being honest like always. "But... there are some good sides to it too. I mean, you'll actually get to show her some new stuff, stuff as simple as kissing, stuff she's never done before and will want to get better at, so that involves a lot of practicing," she said with a light grin. The thought of the upcoming makeout sessions might cheer him up a bit. "And then all the sensations she gets, all the sounds she makes, you'll be able to know you're the first one to cause those. Plus, whatever way it goes, you'll be the best she's ever had," she giggled a bit, teasing him slightly. "And besides, I thought guys liked sleeping with girls who've never had sex before," she shrugged lightly. Well, she was trying to make him see the whole matter in a better point of view, because if he got a big urge to have sex and didn't think Taylor was really worth waiting for, he might give up the wait without actually thinking on it long enough, screw it up and regret it later.

She rolled her eyes as he told her to shut up after she tried explaining to him, knowing he didn't mean it in a bad way, to them that was almost something they told each other every day so she wasn't about to get offended with that. Still, she smacked his arm lightly. "Well at least I'm still trying to help, even if you're one of the most stubborn guy I've ever met," she muttered, folding her arms and shrugging. However, she got a very different reaction the second time he told her to shut up, a wide grin appearing on her face as she looked at him, knwoing him well enough to know that it meant she'd just won that one, and it was as much as she was gonna get out of him today, and if she'd just convinced him and things turned out bad and that meant that she'd be the one getting trouble if that was the case, she'd gladly take it, but she was still very confident about the whole thing, almost sure that it would work out well if Milo got a grip on himself. "Alright then, I will," she said though the slightly smug look she sore would most likely tell him that she knew he'd just admitted she was right to himself, and that was good enough for her. Still grinning lightly, she grabbed her bag and trash and got back to her feet, looking down at him. "Well, now that that's settled, I suggest we go grab a bit or something because I'm starving," she told him with a slight nod. "And no more talking about Taylor for the rest of the evening, promise," she added, raising her right hand with a grin.

[Milo Parker]

Milo sighed slightly as Addie kept talking, he really wished that she would just stop trying to change his mind. Actually he was sort of beginning to regret saying anything to her at all. Maybe it just would have been better that way, but mostly he knew deep down that she was just trying to do what she thought was best for him. And apparently, she thought that Taylor was going to be the best thing for him. Though when she reminded him that there was going to be a lot of waiting he wanted to disagree with her again. Waiting was never good, it didn't do anyone any good to wait, or at least that was what he believed anyway, and actually he'd never had a lot of great examples around him of waiting. Really everyone in his life believed that sex and love were two completely different things and waiting for sex was a waste of time. Then again, there hadn't exactly been a lot of great role model relationships in his life either. After his mother his father hadn't had any stable relationships, he was more into dates and he had quite a few of them. It was probably the one thing that they seemed to have in common, not that he would ever admit that, he didn't want to think that he was like his father in any way shape of form.

He was slightly more happy when she pointed out the fact that Taylor being inexperienced met that he was going to get to teach her a lot of new things and that she'd want to practice things to get better. That was a very good point right there, he would have absolutely no problem practicing with her whenever she wanted to, that much was for sure. He grinned slightly as she kept talking, mentioning that he was going to be the first one to cause all the sounds and sensations that she'd get. That was a thought that he liked quite a bit, he wanted to hear her make quite a few sounds that was for sure, and he knew that he'd probably have a bit of pride in being the one to cause her those sounds, first. "Sometimes guys like having sex with girls who haven't had sex before," he corrected her. "On one hand, you get to do a lot of teaching and they definitely appreciate things a bit more than other girls do because they are used to it. But it's usually not very good sex, so that brings the whole thing down quite a bit." At least, those were his own personal feelings about the sex with a virgin thing.

"Yeah, yeah, helping," he said as he heard her mutter. Though rolled his eyes once she started grinning after he'd told her to shut up. He knew for sure that she pretty much knew what was going on within his mind (a very scary thought) when she made her comment, mostly it was the smug look that she gave him with it that convinced him that she knew. He simply shook his head, she was probably not going to let it go. He was pleasantly surprised to see that he was wrong though as she stood up. He gave her a smile in return, standing up himself. "As long as you keep your promise than things will be fine," he said. "And I'm pretty hungry myself. How about we stop by Wendy's or Taco Bell, something cheap. I'm broke." He grinned over at her slightly and started walking with her, figuring that they'd probably pick the first fast food resturant that they came across whichever way they started talking. The fact that he didn't know where they were even headed was the main reason that he had no clue which fast food joint they'd end up at, not that he cared. Food was food and that was that.