March 23rd, 2009
Apr 4, 2009 22:40:18 GMT -5
Post by Roxanne Emerson on Apr 4, 2009 22:40:18 GMT -5
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Dear Diary,
I wonder still why I was so nervous at the thought of going to Elijah's home for Spring Break. Well, actually, I don't wonder all that much - it was very nerve wrecking and I couldn't help but wonder if maybe his mother would not like me, or even any of his siblings. And still, I'm afraid I might do something wrong along the way and make them hate me, but I keep hope that it won't happen, because the more I see of this place, the more I love it. It's a bit strange, and probably not entirely right or fair, but it feels more like home than home does. Of course, I adore mom and Rosie, and well, Ryan and Becca can be nice enough... but there are times when I seriously believe I would do without dad or Randall. Ruth is peculiar... at times I'd obviously go without her, but then, she's my sister, and it feels to me as though I ought to be by her side no matter what, because she has to endure the same things as I do. Well, granted, often a lot more. Still, she makes it very difficult for one to enjoy her presence, and she knows it too, but I guess she can't help it.
Back on track, Elijah's family is amazing and so welcoming. Well, his brother might not like me quite as much, or at least he's trying to put me to the test or something, because though he's not mean... well, I'd rather not mention it. I know it upsets Elijah though and that's the main reason why I wish things could be different, but at the same time, I suppose it is normal between siblings to have some sort of rilvary. His sisters are two little darlings, however, and I can feel myself already falling in love with them. It's probably a good thing Elijah isn't an irrationally jealous person because I foresee myself spending a lot of time with them in the days to come. Obviously, he'll get my nights... so it shouldn't be so bad. Well, he will if he dares, anyway, because his mother has put us in separate bedrooms, and to be completely honest I think I do prefer it that way. Not that I want to pass for something I am not, but it would make me feel awkward to sleep in Elijah's room with his mother and his entire family being aware of it. Actually, even the thought of him sneaking into the guest bedroom his mom put me in makes me feel a bit uncomfortable - I don't think I'd ever live it down if someone caught us, especially not one of his sisters! The poor darlings would be traumatized for life, but I suppose Lijah loves them enough to make sure that won't happen.
His mother is great as well. I hope I'm not wrong when saying I feel we get along very well already though it's a different kind of getting along than with his sisters, obviously considering they're so small still. But I feel she welcomed me with open arms and it gives me such a heart warming feeling, it's quite amazing. She's truly a wonderful woman and I admire her greatly - I admire them all, after what they've been through, to be such a close family, it's plain to see that they can count on one another. I've spent a lot of my time today watching Elijah play with his little sisters, and obviously... well, I can't help but think of what an amazing father he will be, and how I long to have those children with him. I can picture it much clearer in my mind now, after seeing him play around with Clara and Trissy. And I do hope this wish will come true, because I don't think anyone but him could make me as happy as I feel at this very moment.
But now it is getting late, and I have a feeling that his darling sisters don't sleep in very late - and then, I've had a promise from little Clara that she would make sure I didn't miss breakfast, so I'm expecting to be awoken quite early! Not that I mind, but a good night of sleep after such long hours on the road will be quite welcome.
Love,
Roxanne
Dear Diary,
I wonder still why I was so nervous at the thought of going to Elijah's home for Spring Break. Well, actually, I don't wonder all that much - it was very nerve wrecking and I couldn't help but wonder if maybe his mother would not like me, or even any of his siblings. And still, I'm afraid I might do something wrong along the way and make them hate me, but I keep hope that it won't happen, because the more I see of this place, the more I love it. It's a bit strange, and probably not entirely right or fair, but it feels more like home than home does. Of course, I adore mom and Rosie, and well, Ryan and Becca can be nice enough... but there are times when I seriously believe I would do without dad or Randall. Ruth is peculiar... at times I'd obviously go without her, but then, she's my sister, and it feels to me as though I ought to be by her side no matter what, because she has to endure the same things as I do. Well, granted, often a lot more. Still, she makes it very difficult for one to enjoy her presence, and she knows it too, but I guess she can't help it.
Back on track, Elijah's family is amazing and so welcoming. Well, his brother might not like me quite as much, or at least he's trying to put me to the test or something, because though he's not mean... well, I'd rather not mention it. I know it upsets Elijah though and that's the main reason why I wish things could be different, but at the same time, I suppose it is normal between siblings to have some sort of rilvary. His sisters are two little darlings, however, and I can feel myself already falling in love with them. It's probably a good thing Elijah isn't an irrationally jealous person because I foresee myself spending a lot of time with them in the days to come. Obviously, he'll get my nights... so it shouldn't be so bad. Well, he will if he dares, anyway, because his mother has put us in separate bedrooms, and to be completely honest I think I do prefer it that way. Not that I want to pass for something I am not, but it would make me feel awkward to sleep in Elijah's room with his mother and his entire family being aware of it. Actually, even the thought of him sneaking into the guest bedroom his mom put me in makes me feel a bit uncomfortable - I don't think I'd ever live it down if someone caught us, especially not one of his sisters! The poor darlings would be traumatized for life, but I suppose Lijah loves them enough to make sure that won't happen.
His mother is great as well. I hope I'm not wrong when saying I feel we get along very well already though it's a different kind of getting along than with his sisters, obviously considering they're so small still. But I feel she welcomed me with open arms and it gives me such a heart warming feeling, it's quite amazing. She's truly a wonderful woman and I admire her greatly - I admire them all, after what they've been through, to be such a close family, it's plain to see that they can count on one another. I've spent a lot of my time today watching Elijah play with his little sisters, and obviously... well, I can't help but think of what an amazing father he will be, and how I long to have those children with him. I can picture it much clearer in my mind now, after seeing him play around with Clara and Trissy. And I do hope this wish will come true, because I don't think anyone but him could make me as happy as I feel at this very moment.
But now it is getting late, and I have a feeling that his darling sisters don't sleep in very late - and then, I've had a promise from little Clara that she would make sure I didn't miss breakfast, so I'm expecting to be awoken quite early! Not that I mind, but a good night of sleep after such long hours on the road will be quite welcome.
Love,
Roxanne