March 25th, 2009
Apr 6, 2009 16:49:00 GMT -5
Post by Addison Micklesen on Apr 6, 2009 16:49:00 GMT -5
I don't have a lot of time to write this, and I don't want to take forever either, but I just need to let it out before I scream or hit something and end up hurting myself more than whatever I hit in the process.
I can't believe my mom! I can't believe she'd do that, I can't believe she did it to me! I thought we had something special, I guess I was stupid, but I really did. She's been there by my side my whole life, she spent nights sleeping in the hospital with me when she didn't have work the next day, and even then it's happened that she woke up stiff and still tired and left for her job. She took care of me all my life, she was there for me when dad left us and I was there for her, and we were together and it was all good, and I counted her as a friend as much as I counted her a friend.
And now she's gone and found herself some guy who knocked her up in the process. That's right, she has a new man in her life, who's living in OUR home, and she's pregnant. And she didn't tell me any of that. And it has to have been going on for a long while, because my mom wouldn't just move in with someone and get pregnant for anyone, so that makes me wonder just how long she's been hiding it all from me and that just upsets me more. I just feel like I'm twelve all over again and now she's the one abandoning me. Oh whatever, other kids have survived without parents before, so now I'm a self declared orphan. I'm gonna arrange something this summer, there's no way I'm going back home, and then after I graduate I could probably find a place to live in with Connor if we go to the same College or something like that.
So I don't really feel that much better, but at least I don't feel like screaming anymore. Taylor's probably waiting for me anyway, we're supposed to go shopping though I promised we wouldn't go anywhere near the sex shop today. She's such a baby, but I guess since Milo took her there she'd got all she needs on that front so I guess I'll give her a small break and try to get her to buy heels and shorter skirts or something.
Addie
I can't believe my mom! I can't believe she'd do that, I can't believe she did it to me! I thought we had something special, I guess I was stupid, but I really did. She's been there by my side my whole life, she spent nights sleeping in the hospital with me when she didn't have work the next day, and even then it's happened that she woke up stiff and still tired and left for her job. She took care of me all my life, she was there for me when dad left us and I was there for her, and we were together and it was all good, and I counted her as a friend as much as I counted her a friend.
And now she's gone and found herself some guy who knocked her up in the process. That's right, she has a new man in her life, who's living in OUR home, and she's pregnant. And she didn't tell me any of that. And it has to have been going on for a long while, because my mom wouldn't just move in with someone and get pregnant for anyone, so that makes me wonder just how long she's been hiding it all from me and that just upsets me more. I just feel like I'm twelve all over again and now she's the one abandoning me. Oh whatever, other kids have survived without parents before, so now I'm a self declared orphan. I'm gonna arrange something this summer, there's no way I'm going back home, and then after I graduate I could probably find a place to live in with Connor if we go to the same College or something like that.
So I don't really feel that much better, but at least I don't feel like screaming anymore. Taylor's probably waiting for me anyway, we're supposed to go shopping though I promised we wouldn't go anywhere near the sex shop today. She's such a baby, but I guess since Milo took her there she'd got all she needs on that front so I guess I'll give her a small break and try to get her to buy heels and shorter skirts or something.
Addie