March 26, 2009
Apr 11, 2009 11:56:41 GMT -5
Post by Mandy Steele on Apr 11, 2009 11:56:41 GMT -5
Dear Diary,
So things have been really awkward with Via since the whole slumber party incident when it was put out there that not only did it get out that the girl happens to like me but also that she kind of happens to have hot dreams about me. Yeah it's just weird. And to top it all off apparently I was the only who didn't know. How is that even possible? I mean there had to be someone else that didn't notice. It wasn't that obvious. It couldn't have been that obvious... though now that I think back on it I can kind of see things where it's possible that it might have been pretty obvious and I just overlooked it. But come on! I wasn't expecting something like that to happen. How often do your new friends that you make that you think are really close to you actually turn out to have huge crushes on you? Okay... probably a lot now that I think about it. I still say that I wasn't expecting it though. I mean I just kind of thought that Via was like Roxie, only different. And now I just kind of feel stupid and awkward every time that I go around her. So really, I just haven't been going around her all too much. Which seems bad, I know but I'm still really unsure of how I'm supposed to act now. And only partly because of the fact that she's another girl, I think I'd probably feel just about the same if she had been a guy in the same position.
But I talked to Roxie today and I promised her that I would try because I still do want to be friends with Via. I mean, she's still Via I suppose. So I guess that I do kind of have to make the effort now that I've pushed her away to try and get the two of us to hang out some more now. So I did call her just a few minutes ago and made plans for the two of us to hang out some tomorrow. I'm not sure what we're going to do since we both just decided to meet here at our dorm but I think (or rather I really hope) that things will most likely end up being fine. I mean I'm sure that they might not go back to how they used to be exactly, but maybe they could get to be somewhere that is closer to it. Except I really don't know how comfortable I'd be with doing things like sharing a bed or something anymore. I mean I know that she wouldn't try anything, cause of Aidan but still...
Speaking of Aidan and beds, I spent the night in his room the other day since Connor was doing this big thing for Addie's birthday in our room and I decided that it was best I just not be there like Connor suggested. I have no interest in seeing anything that goes on between the two of them. Really, I'm actually a little bit scared of it. Anyway, I liked sleeping in Aidan's room. I liked being able to sleep next to him for the entire night and being able to cuddle up next to him and such. And I swear that I slept better than I usually do just for that reason. Kind of like I did at the slumber party, only better because there weren't a whole bunch of people around. I think I might want to do it more if I'm able to. As for anything else that might have happened, we did make it a little bit further than we had before on the whole physical side of things and I didn't experience anything that I didn't like so... yeah. It's probably likely that things will end up back at that point a few times more since Aidan seemed to be enjoying it quite a bit too.
I think I should probably put down my pen for now though. My math homework still needs doing. Maybe I could ask Aidan for a bit of help, since he seems to get it so much and I'm kind of stuck (which was why I was holding off on it).
Love,
Mandy
So things have been really awkward with Via since the whole slumber party incident when it was put out there that not only did it get out that the girl happens to like me but also that she kind of happens to have hot dreams about me. Yeah it's just weird. And to top it all off apparently I was the only who didn't know. How is that even possible? I mean there had to be someone else that didn't notice. It wasn't that obvious. It couldn't have been that obvious... though now that I think back on it I can kind of see things where it's possible that it might have been pretty obvious and I just overlooked it. But come on! I wasn't expecting something like that to happen. How often do your new friends that you make that you think are really close to you actually turn out to have huge crushes on you? Okay... probably a lot now that I think about it. I still say that I wasn't expecting it though. I mean I just kind of thought that Via was like Roxie, only different. And now I just kind of feel stupid and awkward every time that I go around her. So really, I just haven't been going around her all too much. Which seems bad, I know but I'm still really unsure of how I'm supposed to act now. And only partly because of the fact that she's another girl, I think I'd probably feel just about the same if she had been a guy in the same position.
But I talked to Roxie today and I promised her that I would try because I still do want to be friends with Via. I mean, she's still Via I suppose. So I guess that I do kind of have to make the effort now that I've pushed her away to try and get the two of us to hang out some more now. So I did call her just a few minutes ago and made plans for the two of us to hang out some tomorrow. I'm not sure what we're going to do since we both just decided to meet here at our dorm but I think (or rather I really hope) that things will most likely end up being fine. I mean I'm sure that they might not go back to how they used to be exactly, but maybe they could get to be somewhere that is closer to it. Except I really don't know how comfortable I'd be with doing things like sharing a bed or something anymore. I mean I know that she wouldn't try anything, cause of Aidan but still...
Speaking of Aidan and beds, I spent the night in his room the other day since Connor was doing this big thing for Addie's birthday in our room and I decided that it was best I just not be there like Connor suggested. I have no interest in seeing anything that goes on between the two of them. Really, I'm actually a little bit scared of it. Anyway, I liked sleeping in Aidan's room. I liked being able to sleep next to him for the entire night and being able to cuddle up next to him and such. And I swear that I slept better than I usually do just for that reason. Kind of like I did at the slumber party, only better because there weren't a whole bunch of people around. I think I might want to do it more if I'm able to. As for anything else that might have happened, we did make it a little bit further than we had before on the whole physical side of things and I didn't experience anything that I didn't like so... yeah. It's probably likely that things will end up back at that point a few times more since Aidan seemed to be enjoying it quite a bit too.
I think I should probably put down my pen for now though. My math homework still needs doing. Maybe I could ask Aidan for a bit of help, since he seems to get it so much and I'm kind of stuck (which was why I was holding off on it).
Love,
Mandy