March 28, 2009
Apr 11, 2009 13:04:45 GMT -5
Post by Owen Graham on Apr 11, 2009 13:04:45 GMT -5
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I've heard that girls are confusing, I've heard it many times over from the guys that are around me constantly. For some reason it seems to be one of their favorite things to say. They love to talk about girls and just how much confusion that they feel over them. Now I always thought that they were exaggerating because girls aren't that complicated at all. At least I thought that girls weren't that complicated. But that was well before I got into the situation that I'm in right now with Cassandra. Because let me tell you, that girl is probably the exact definition of confusing. I can never get a straight conclusion when I think about her anymore. I can't decide what I even want to think about her or what I should be thinking about her. And plus it doesn't help that the two of us keep digging ourselves deeper and deeper into this little hole that we started the first time that we slept together. Since that we've had sex two more times and for one of the times I almost got my ass kicked for it. Not exactly the type of situation that I want to be in.
And yet, I still can't help but want her the same amount as ever. I can't help but want to have sex with her again. It's almost addicting because I can never stop thinking about it. Or her for that matter anymore. She's constantly there and it doesn't help that I have to see her so often either. Because I know that it's not likely that she'd stop me if I really wanted to do anything with her. And God do I want to do things with her. It's insane, being so close to her and not being able to touch. I swear to you I will go insane eventually. That perfect body is always there just taunting me and I already know so very much of it. Not as much as I'd like to, I'll admit, but I still know how it feels pressed against mine and under my hands. And then of course there's so many other small things that make me just want her even more than before. And worse still is I'm pretty sure that she's probably in a pretty similar situation which doesn't look good for the two of us.
As if it isn't bad enough to constantly be fantasizing about ways to make her scream there are times when I find myself actually thinking that she's a pretty alright person. Which is clearly a sign that I've lost it because I think I might actually like her. In a way that's not all sexual. It probably has to do with the fact that I've seen her cry so many times now. As many times as I've slept with her actually... well the first time shouldn't count I guess. But still, there's something about it that makes her seem more human. Less bitchy and more like a girl that actually has some feeling in her. Which is the main reason that I've pretty much decided to avoid her just because it's possible that that little fact might slip out. Or I'll end up screwing her against the first surface that I see. Either way I doubt it'd help the confusion out in any form.
And if it weren't for the fact that the sex with her is so great that I'm starting to have doubts that I'll be able to find someone who will feel quite so good I might try and have a fling or something. But that seems pretty useless at the moment too. So for now I'm just stuck.
Owen
I've heard that girls are confusing, I've heard it many times over from the guys that are around me constantly. For some reason it seems to be one of their favorite things to say. They love to talk about girls and just how much confusion that they feel over them. Now I always thought that they were exaggerating because girls aren't that complicated at all. At least I thought that girls weren't that complicated. But that was well before I got into the situation that I'm in right now with Cassandra. Because let me tell you, that girl is probably the exact definition of confusing. I can never get a straight conclusion when I think about her anymore. I can't decide what I even want to think about her or what I should be thinking about her. And plus it doesn't help that the two of us keep digging ourselves deeper and deeper into this little hole that we started the first time that we slept together. Since that we've had sex two more times and for one of the times I almost got my ass kicked for it. Not exactly the type of situation that I want to be in.
And yet, I still can't help but want her the same amount as ever. I can't help but want to have sex with her again. It's almost addicting because I can never stop thinking about it. Or her for that matter anymore. She's constantly there and it doesn't help that I have to see her so often either. Because I know that it's not likely that she'd stop me if I really wanted to do anything with her. And God do I want to do things with her. It's insane, being so close to her and not being able to touch. I swear to you I will go insane eventually. That perfect body is always there just taunting me and I already know so very much of it. Not as much as I'd like to, I'll admit, but I still know how it feels pressed against mine and under my hands. And then of course there's so many other small things that make me just want her even more than before. And worse still is I'm pretty sure that she's probably in a pretty similar situation which doesn't look good for the two of us.
As if it isn't bad enough to constantly be fantasizing about ways to make her scream there are times when I find myself actually thinking that she's a pretty alright person. Which is clearly a sign that I've lost it because I think I might actually like her. In a way that's not all sexual. It probably has to do with the fact that I've seen her cry so many times now. As many times as I've slept with her actually... well the first time shouldn't count I guess. But still, there's something about it that makes her seem more human. Less bitchy and more like a girl that actually has some feeling in her. Which is the main reason that I've pretty much decided to avoid her just because it's possible that that little fact might slip out. Or I'll end up screwing her against the first surface that I see. Either way I doubt it'd help the confusion out in any form.
And if it weren't for the fact that the sex with her is so great that I'm starting to have doubts that I'll be able to find someone who will feel quite so good I might try and have a fling or something. But that seems pretty useless at the moment too. So for now I'm just stuck.
Owen