November 10th, 2009
Oct 8, 2009 14:58:32 GMT -5
Post by Kimberly Nolan on Oct 8, 2009 14:58:32 GMT -5
Dear Brett,
I missed your letters so much, but I can't say I'm much betetr. I could have written to you upon receiving no news but I didn't, and so obviously if there's blame to be taken, I should take it since you couldn't know your letter hadn't reached me.
I hate to say it, but I've let myself go in the past month. I've been feeling so lonely that it allowed many - too many - bad thoughts to wander in my head, and though I feel horrible for it, some of thoughts focused on you, on wondering if maybe the wait and the distance was too hard, on thinking of how many more interesting girls you could find. So many stupid, irrational fears and I hate myself for it. I refuse to see it as doubting your word though, because the one thing that kept me hoping was the knowledge that you loved me, that you'd promised to be there, and I knew you wouldn't break your promise.
Moreover, I also knew that in the eventuality of your finding someone else or deciding it was too much for you, you wouldn't just let me hanging. And I do know that if there's one person in the world that I can have faith in, it's you. I could have kept this to myself, but I wanted to be honest with you, because I love you too much to keep anything from you, even the bad. But with bad comes good in my realisation that you're the one person I could ever love and trust, and my knowledge and hope that you'll always feel the same.
In other news, I graduated last week and am now official party of the US army. The journey doesn't end here, of course, but once my contract is through I will be able to leave, with hopefully enough money to put me through college, and then I'll be close to you again. I wish you'd been here, and I was thinking of you the whole time and knowing that in one month I'll be able to see you... the mere thought makes my heart beat so much faster. I can't wait to see you again, feel your arms around me and your lips on mine. I don't know how I'll ever be able to let you go during that short holiday break; I don't think I will either, unless strictly necessary. I am glad to know that your brother and sister-in-law don't mind my coming either, please thank them for me. I'll be arriving at the bus station on the 18th of December, but I'll call you to tell you which time exactly.
I have to go now, but I'll wait for your next letter with impatience. I love you, more than anything, and I can't wait to see you.
Kimmy
P.S.: I loved the picture, it definitely made my day
I missed your letters so much, but I can't say I'm much betetr. I could have written to you upon receiving no news but I didn't, and so obviously if there's blame to be taken, I should take it since you couldn't know your letter hadn't reached me.
I hate to say it, but I've let myself go in the past month. I've been feeling so lonely that it allowed many - too many - bad thoughts to wander in my head, and though I feel horrible for it, some of thoughts focused on you, on wondering if maybe the wait and the distance was too hard, on thinking of how many more interesting girls you could find. So many stupid, irrational fears and I hate myself for it. I refuse to see it as doubting your word though, because the one thing that kept me hoping was the knowledge that you loved me, that you'd promised to be there, and I knew you wouldn't break your promise.
Moreover, I also knew that in the eventuality of your finding someone else or deciding it was too much for you, you wouldn't just let me hanging. And I do know that if there's one person in the world that I can have faith in, it's you. I could have kept this to myself, but I wanted to be honest with you, because I love you too much to keep anything from you, even the bad. But with bad comes good in my realisation that you're the one person I could ever love and trust, and my knowledge and hope that you'll always feel the same.
In other news, I graduated last week and am now official party of the US army. The journey doesn't end here, of course, but once my contract is through I will be able to leave, with hopefully enough money to put me through college, and then I'll be close to you again. I wish you'd been here, and I was thinking of you the whole time and knowing that in one month I'll be able to see you... the mere thought makes my heart beat so much faster. I can't wait to see you again, feel your arms around me and your lips on mine. I don't know how I'll ever be able to let you go during that short holiday break; I don't think I will either, unless strictly necessary. I am glad to know that your brother and sister-in-law don't mind my coming either, please thank them for me. I'll be arriving at the bus station on the 18th of December, but I'll call you to tell you which time exactly.
I have to go now, but I'll wait for your next letter with impatience. I love you, more than anything, and I can't wait to see you.
Kimmy
P.S.: I loved the picture, it definitely made my day