February 8, 2011
Feb 6, 2011 12:37:48 GMT -5
Post by Felicia Travers on Feb 6, 2011 12:37:48 GMT -5
Dear Diary,
I don't know how or why, but lately mom has taken up the notion that Nate and I are bound to be married. She keeps dropping hints and questions about weddings and engagements and it's starting to creep me out. Though I guess I should be thankful that she took this notion after Nate and I left, since otherwise she would have made comments in front of him and that would be bad too. I'm just seventeen after all, I can't be expected to have found my soul mate by now. Sure, some weirdos at school are all for getting engaged right now because they think that they're in a relationship that's bound to last forever, but that's not me. Sure, I love Nate and I really like the idea of maybe having a future with him, but I'm a bit skeptical of any future imagined being a serious reality.
We're just so young is all and well, we haven't even really ever talked about the kind of future we're looking for in a relationship. We've talked about plans for careers and possibly places where we'd go to pursue such careers. However, I'm pretty sure that he imagines children in his future though and my future is strictly without any children imagined. It's not like I'd be a mother of the year or anything, I'd barely manage to be a good mother of the day. Kids actually kind of gross me out, with the fluids that they're always using from various pores in their body and the smells that come from them and babies aren't pretty. I'm sorry, but newborns especially are just pink and squishy and not nice looking. People don't even let me hold their babies and there has to be good reason for that.
On the other hand, (though I'd never, ever admit this to anyone now) I could see myself marrying him sometime. More so than I can see myself with anyone else. If I picture having a wedding, it's always with him. But I don't think about getting married that often anyway, it's just that he happens to be the only one I can picture getting married to. Probably cause he's the only one that I've ever really felt like this about. And maybe, someday in the future (a few years probably) the idea of getting married might even seem like a nice one. For now though, it's just not. In fact, the idea of getting engaged at my age is just freaky.
Anyway, I should get going. I've gotta finish up this math homework and I'd like to have it done before Nate gets back. As for the mom situation, I'm just going to keep telling her she's crazy for now and enjoy the way things are.
xoxo
Felicia
I don't know how or why, but lately mom has taken up the notion that Nate and I are bound to be married. She keeps dropping hints and questions about weddings and engagements and it's starting to creep me out. Though I guess I should be thankful that she took this notion after Nate and I left, since otherwise she would have made comments in front of him and that would be bad too. I'm just seventeen after all, I can't be expected to have found my soul mate by now. Sure, some weirdos at school are all for getting engaged right now because they think that they're in a relationship that's bound to last forever, but that's not me. Sure, I love Nate and I really like the idea of maybe having a future with him, but I'm a bit skeptical of any future imagined being a serious reality.
We're just so young is all and well, we haven't even really ever talked about the kind of future we're looking for in a relationship. We've talked about plans for careers and possibly places where we'd go to pursue such careers. However, I'm pretty sure that he imagines children in his future though and my future is strictly without any children imagined. It's not like I'd be a mother of the year or anything, I'd barely manage to be a good mother of the day. Kids actually kind of gross me out, with the fluids that they're always using from various pores in their body and the smells that come from them and babies aren't pretty. I'm sorry, but newborns especially are just pink and squishy and not nice looking. People don't even let me hold their babies and there has to be good reason for that.
On the other hand, (though I'd never, ever admit this to anyone now) I could see myself marrying him sometime. More so than I can see myself with anyone else. If I picture having a wedding, it's always with him. But I don't think about getting married that often anyway, it's just that he happens to be the only one I can picture getting married to. Probably cause he's the only one that I've ever really felt like this about. And maybe, someday in the future (a few years probably) the idea of getting married might even seem like a nice one. For now though, it's just not. In fact, the idea of getting engaged at my age is just freaky.
Anyway, I should get going. I've gotta finish up this math homework and I'd like to have it done before Nate gets back. As for the mom situation, I'm just going to keep telling her she's crazy for now and enjoy the way things are.
xoxo
Felicia