May 7, 2011
May 11, 2011 18:36:05 GMT -5
Post by Zoey Hundt on May 11, 2011 18:36:05 GMT -5
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Dear Diary,
I don't even know how to describe what happened today. I'll start at the beginning. Tonight was Marisol's fashion show, and that went fantastically. I mean, I never would have thought that I'd have had so much fun or been actually good at it. That was beside the point though. Afterward, Marisol asked if I wanted to go out and celebrate with her. Well, since she actually let me keep all the clothes I said yes. Long story short we got some ice cream and walked to the park. I got some ice cream outside my mouth and she pointed it out, but I completely missed at getting all of it off.
Instead of just, I don't know, telling me that I missed it she moved her hand up and brushed away the ice cream. And then she did thisnice weird thing with her thumb and brushed it across my lips. I mean, who does that? That's not the worst part though the won worst part is that after that she full out kissed me. Like, I'm talking going right in for it and pressing one right against my lips. Out of nowhere this girl is just kissing me all of a sudden and it felt strange and not a good kind of strange either.
Seriously, who does that? When does someone think that it's a good idea to randomly lay a kiss on someone?Especially a kiss like that. It's clearly not a good idea to do something like that, I mean, I'm not even into girls and she did that still. How could she even mentally think that something like that would go over well? How could she expect anything to go well in that situation?
I mean, sure, I might have kissed her back a little. However, I can't even be blamed for that one. What was I supposed to do in the situation? When she leaned in I wastoo focused on how she I was in a bit of disbelief. No one had even kissed me before, so I just didn't think it was going to happen. Instead I just kinda responded to how her lips to the kiss. Anyone would have done the same if they'd been in my position. Going off of instincts and what not. People naturally have them and they just follow along to them, which was exactly what I was doing. Following my instincts.
There wasn't any thought involved in it at all,except maybe how it felt. None. And that just proves how much it was a fluke. I just didn't stop it because it felt I didn't know how to without hurting Marisol's feelings. I mean, she was obviously into it with the way that she made me kept deepening everything like every five seconds. It was a trapping situation to be in. No one wants that situation and I didn't want to be the one to make her feel bad. Though I definitely should have stopped way before she got her tongue into my mouth but then.
Either way, now I'm avoiding her since it's awkward and I ran away and I just wish the whole thing had never even happened. My life would be so much simpler if it hadn't. Besides, now I'm apparently going to be the reason that Marisol has a bad last month and even a bad graduation. It's still not my fault that the girl kissed me and I can't talk to her because I don't know howI feel to say what I think about the entire situation. Ugh, all over this just sucks and I need a break from it all.
I should probably head to bed now anyway. I have practice in the morning and I wouldn't want to be tired during it.
xxx
Zoey
5/7/2011
Dear Diary,
I don't even know how to describe what happened today. I'll start at the beginning. Tonight was Marisol's fashion show, and that went fantastically. I mean, I never would have thought that I'd have had so much fun or been actually good at it. That was beside the point though. Afterward, Marisol asked if I wanted to go out and celebrate with her. Well, since she actually let me keep all the clothes I said yes. Long story short we got some ice cream and walked to the park. I got some ice cream outside my mouth and she pointed it out, but I completely missed at getting all of it off.
Instead of just, I don't know, telling me that I missed it she moved her hand up and brushed away the ice cream. And then she did this
Seriously, who does that? When does someone think that it's a good idea to randomly lay a kiss on someone?
I mean, sure, I might have kissed her back a little. However, I can't even be blamed for that one. What was I supposed to do in the situation? When she leaned in I was
There wasn't any thought involved in it at all,
Either way, now I'm avoiding her since it's awkward and I ran away and I just wish the whole thing had never even happened. My life would be so much simpler if it hadn't. Besides, now I'm apparently going to be the reason that Marisol has a bad last month and even a bad graduation. It's still not my fault that the girl kissed me and I can't talk to her because I don't know how
I should probably head to bed now anyway. I have practice in the morning and I wouldn't want to be tired during it.
xxx
Zoey