July 9th, 2011
Jun 13, 2011 10:14:50 GMT -5
Post by Addison Micklesen on Jun 13, 2011 10:14:50 GMT -5
So, things are moving along pretty well so far. Connor and I got back from California about two days ago, and papers are signed for the apartment we found, which we'd due to move it by mid August. I wish I could say I don't like it - I mean, I promised I'd be supportive and all of that, and I will be, but I could at least be given something more to complain about if we hadn't found a nice place to move into. But nope, I can't even do that because let's face it, the place we got is pretty great. Expensive, obviously, because California doesn't seem to know the meaning of cheap rent - or well, maybe it has to do with the fact that Connor's job is in Los Angeles - but we get a pretty good result for the price we pay. We even have a view on the water and stuff, and wooden floor. Like, not real wooden floor, but still, it looks pretty awesome after carpet.
I still wish things would have happened differently, very differently, but I guess at this point there isn't much more to be done about it. I don't plan on going back on my word, and I'm happy that Connor got such an amazing opportunity. I just wish it didn't mean being away from everyone for a whole year. Mom is due to give birth like any day now, and that'll give me what, a month to get to know my baby sister before I leave? And then when we get back she'll be a year old and she won't even know me. Well, I'll visit of course, but still. I guess I can't complain about that either though since Connor barely ever gets to see Sophie, but somehow every time he goes home she's all over him and follows him around like a puppy, no matter how long it's been since she last saw him. It's pretty damn adorable.
And then, there's my friends. There's Milo. I know he's got Taylor now, and he has other friends around of course, and I'll have Connor, but still. I've never been away from Milo for more than a couple of weeks at a time because we'd always visit each other during summer and he never went home for Christmas. And now I'll have to spend months at a time away from him? How the hell am I supposed to do that? He's my best friend and he's my brother, I need him around, and he needs me around to keep him from doing stupid stuff.
I guess everything will end up falling into place or something, it'll have to, but it doesn't mean it won't be hard. Connor will be working a lot, and I'll find myself alone during that time, without anybody to hang out with. I mean, I guess I can make friends over there but we'll be moving back over after a year so I don't want to make strong ties over there or whatever. I suppose getting a job will be an option but it'll be like a student job and working at a restaurant or movie theater isn't exactly what I had in mind for next year. If we at least had found out early enough, I could have tried to transfer to a college over there for the year by it was too late and now my best option is to apply for the winter term and only be half a year delayed. Even that kinda sucks but I guess I'll have to deal with it won't I?
I do feel pretty selfish for all the complaining I do, I mean, I still have an amazing husband and friends who'll be calling and IMing me, a family who'll welcome me whenever I come back, and California is hardly the worst place in the world to live in, but it's just gonna be... different. I've never been high on different.
Oh well, I should get going now. Grocery shopping and cleaning to be done.
Addie
I still wish things would have happened differently, very differently, but I guess at this point there isn't much more to be done about it. I don't plan on going back on my word, and I'm happy that Connor got such an amazing opportunity. I just wish it didn't mean being away from everyone for a whole year. Mom is due to give birth like any day now, and that'll give me what, a month to get to know my baby sister before I leave? And then when we get back she'll be a year old and she won't even know me. Well, I'll visit of course, but still. I guess I can't complain about that either though since Connor barely ever gets to see Sophie, but somehow every time he goes home she's all over him and follows him around like a puppy, no matter how long it's been since she last saw him. It's pretty damn adorable.
And then, there's my friends. There's Milo. I know he's got Taylor now, and he has other friends around of course, and I'll have Connor, but still. I've never been away from Milo for more than a couple of weeks at a time because we'd always visit each other during summer and he never went home for Christmas. And now I'll have to spend months at a time away from him? How the hell am I supposed to do that? He's my best friend and he's my brother, I need him around, and he needs me around to keep him from doing stupid stuff.
I guess everything will end up falling into place or something, it'll have to, but it doesn't mean it won't be hard. Connor will be working a lot, and I'll find myself alone during that time, without anybody to hang out with. I mean, I guess I can make friends over there but we'll be moving back over after a year so I don't want to make strong ties over there or whatever. I suppose getting a job will be an option but it'll be like a student job and working at a restaurant or movie theater isn't exactly what I had in mind for next year. If we at least had found out early enough, I could have tried to transfer to a college over there for the year by it was too late and now my best option is to apply for the winter term and only be half a year delayed. Even that kinda sucks but I guess I'll have to deal with it won't I?
I do feel pretty selfish for all the complaining I do, I mean, I still have an amazing husband and friends who'll be calling and IMing me, a family who'll welcome me whenever I come back, and California is hardly the worst place in the world to live in, but it's just gonna be... different. I've never been high on different.
Oh well, I should get going now. Grocery shopping and cleaning to be done.
Addie